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saya rasa sangat jauh with one of my best buddy. am i too conservative or im not as open minded as i thought. i dont blame her for where do she live now. distance always not the reason.we're still in the same town just her family moved out to other place within our town. i do feel like she already changed. i knew she make a move to make her life better.but do i feel better with it? am i jealous to her? 100% not. im not jealous. but sometimes i feel like she is far away from me. do i already been left behind? do i need some changes in my life? do i need to talk to her what i feel rite now? other friends assume she is enjoying her life rite now. give her some space. i knew she have a lot of friends. she is fun, she is gorgeous and she is pretty. everybody seems like wanna be her friend. i know if she is reading this entry she might think that 'apa saja la si ella ni pk kan' but i do miss her. she got her own life. she doesnt need me to advice her anymore. she doesnt need my shoulder to cry on anymore. currently she is with her exbf again. to that particular man, i hate you. from the deepest of my heart. i hate you because u such a jerk to me. when u cant have this little girl, u came to me and beg to me to help u getting back with her. after all this while, after she came back to you, you dont need me anymore aite? what kind of person are you? selfish and unthankful. hey you man, go and die. seriously.